A month ago I was assigned to write an essay about myself for my life planning class(it was annoying AF) and I was reassured about a lot of things and learned some interesting things about myself and that there are people like me out there; but very few. To learn about ourselves my professor had us take multiple personality tests and do exercises to get a more in depth description of our personalities. I always knew I was an independent person and realist, but these tests really made it clear. I’m too lazy to read my results and say specifically the words that describe me but one of the words that describes me that I will always remember is hard hearted. Now, there’s a difference between cold hearted and hard hearted (or maybe I just think that to make myself seem less like an asshole). I’m not cold hearted, I have some sympathy and feelings; once in a while. My professors description of hard hearted was that I don’t like whiners(TRUUU), people who nag, and people who cry all the time and talk about feelings. I’m EXTREMELY realistic and believe whining will get you nowhere in life and believe a negative attitude gives you a negative life. I hate lazy people. If you play the victim I’m not going to give you pitty and if you’re helpless I’m not gonna hold your hand. Maybe that’s why I have so little friends now because of my lack of sympathy for people’s feelings but that’s just who I am. I’m fine being alone, no ones gonna bring me success but myself. I just can’t understand feelings I guess, weird I know. And I can’t understand why someone would make themselves feel miserable voluntary because their life is not going the way they want to. I do have feelings though don’t get me wrong, I just know when to turn them off and on. And maybe I keep them off a little too much but it’s better that way, at least for me it is. I don’t know why I wrote this, I guess I’m just tired of dealing with this person for so long who constantly acts like a bitch. I can’t deal with feelings and mind games for a long period of time, which is why all my relationships have ended. I get bored, tired, and annoyed really fast. Whatever, rant over.